For the greater good. For the… sigh… greater good.
“By the time you read this letter, I may be (gone). I have so much to tell you and perhaps very little time. Will I ever (publish) it? I don’t know. I must find strength to write now before it’s too late, and as I write it may become clear that what happened to us had its own reason beyond our poor understanding.”
By the time you read this, I’ll be gone.
I knew you guys would try to save me. Try to talk me out of it. And I couldn’t let that happen. I can’t be saved. This world? It’s not for me any longer.
I purposefully pre-set this to publish at 6:05 p.m. Because by the time you read this, it will be too late to stop me.
This is something I have to do.
I know many of you won’t understand. I don’t expect you to.
Just never doubt that I love you all. Not for a minute.
And… if we don’t speak again, know that everything I did, I did for all of you.
By the time you read this, I will be watching the New York Yankees game.
Don’t bother calling. My phone is off.
I will be watching the New York Yankees game. In public. I will, at a reasonable volume, say, with as much enthusiasm as my 27 years of hate can muster: “Go Yankees.”
I will say things like “Go Derek Jeter,” and “You get ‘em, Nick Swisher.”
I don’t know if there’s coming back from that. I will use Curtis Grandersnot’s real name (It is Curtis Granderson) and say, “Please get a home run, Alex Rodriguez.”
And I will say these things freely. Freely.
I do this, my friends, so you won’t have to.
I don’t know what’s going to happen tonight. Or tomorrow.
But I’ve given so much, Soxies. I’ve given my pride. I’ve given my hopes. My dreams.
And tonight, dear friends, I give my dignity. It is all I have.
With this sacrifice, I hope I’ll prove to the baseball gods once and for all, that I’m in this. I have nothing left to give.
Best-case scenario, I move on from tonight. When the series is over, I’ll be able to return to my life. My job. My home.
But I’m not that naïve. I know that the EMPIRE… They’re not just going to let me leave.
But that’s a risk I have to take. For the greater good.
If I don’t come back, tell my mother… tell her… you know what? Don’t tell her anything. Or make up something noble and tell her I said it. Just don’t tell her that I… you know…
Went Stankee.
We’ve been through so much, you and I. I hope you… I hope you understand. This is something I have to do. For the greater good. Curt Schilling pushed me to this. Curt Young pushed me to this. I’m not a fan, right now, of people named Curt.
I love you all. You have to take care of each other now. Forgive me.
Until we meet again…
Go… Yankees.
Sigh.
~L
Lauren, NOOOOOOOO!!!!
It’s not the only way! there’s still time!
But Lauren the bases are loaded with 2 outs. Not one out but two. Oh did that sound happy? THE BASES ARE LOADED AND WE ARE UP AT BAT! No runs most likely. Prove me wrong Scuturo.
Nothing. They get nothing. I am with you. Why watch this. Lets hope for winning by process of elimination.
Guess what I won the right to do today? Sit in a virtual waiting room for LADS tickets. Too bad I will be out.
That should say ALDS but I typed without checking what I typed.
Maybe I will do my own live blogging. Well until Glee comes on. I think it is on at 8 tonight.
Yep Glee is tonight. Bedard has one out in the second. 2-1. They are talking about his knee issues. Base hit for Adm Jones. It was on the curve ball. 25 minutes until Glee.
Jones is out. Other guy safe at first, two down. GO Pedroia.,
Chris Davis is up. Like who the hell is Chris Davis? He is a former Texas Ranger. Strike one.
I have heard of Adam Jones and Markakis but that is about it on this team. Oh and Fin Vlade. Fair ball, out at first.
Next innning.
YES, Nick Swisher got a double. Did I just say that?
Eric Charvez gets a run. They seem to be playing their B line up tonight. Skankees always skanke.
Mile Avilis is up next. Then Jacoby. Strike 3, bye Salty.
Walk. We have a guy on base and said bases are not loaded so we might actually do something. Strike one JACOBY! played the mumba. Listen to the radio. Oh we built this city. We built this city on, rock and roll.
DP, Jesus JACOBY!
It;s just another Sunday. Quiet on the street.s Oh we got the choke hold but we can’t find the beat. is turning over in their grave
Reo Speedwagon rolling is over in their grave with the words I write. Probably not word perfect but close enough.
The Yankees have the bases loaded and no outs. One out for Sox.
Jeter wants us to go away, Loser just struck out.
Granderson is up. He will probably be MVP and he ill probably so shit with the bases loaded liek cheater Jeter.
Granderson got a double. 3 runs scored. Granderson wants the MVP more then to win a post season series.
Fraud is up. Like he will do anything
I can’t watch the Yankees game and root for them. I feel dirty. and sick.and gross inside.
The end justifies the means but I can’t physically do it. Glee in six minutes THANK GOD.
Pi picked the right time to turn to glee. By lead. Bye sox.
My baby nephew is screaming Duh in my ear. The boy is brilliant.
NIGHT ALL
Another quote on my facebook today
I am now taking only the positives out of the day and letting go of the negatives =) and one positive of the day is that i learned how to fall extremely gracefully lol
The Skankees or should I say Derek Cheater just left the bases loaded. He did that on purpose.
We are losing 4-1. Bedard is out of the game . Thanks Atchison for that last out and Glee just sang, we got the beat.
Scratch that. We are losing 3-2. Thanks Gonzo.
One out. Thanks Atchinson.
I spoke to soon. A hit.
We out. Good job atchison:)
bases loaded, no one out. me scared, come on pd
the ump just called a strike that was literally at pedroiA’S head, length wise and he strikes out. bases loaded curse
One run and a ridiculous call as a strike for papi. BILL SHIT.
and glee kicked Santana out of Glee club. WTF Santana is the best thing about Glee. I bet she could hit the ball with the bases loaded.
Teacher. “What is the capital of Ohio.” Brittany.” O”
and glee ends
Now this is just BS. Vlade tried stealing a base and was thrown out? That is called getting cocky. What an ass he has become. I knew Angels were assholes but who knew going to Baltimore gives you a big freaking head.
I missed what Buck Showalter was thrown out for:)
Now I am watching Ringer. Logan from Veronica Mars is on it so I thought I would watch it.
Adam Jones reminds me of Bronson Arroyo. It must be the hair.
You were right about Bard but this was Francona’s fault for putting him in two innings.,
Two on, one out and Papelbon is in. I scared. I change channel.
Strike 3, questionable but we will take it. 2 outs
i love that you have taken over for me. i love that. could you do this all the time?
The Yankees are winning 5-0. they don’t need me anymore. i don’t want to talk about it. maybe tomorrow. i have seen things, fda. THINGS.
1 run game. I hate one run games and now we will have to use Papelbon in the 9th too. One strike. My sister is at tonight’s game with her husband. Strike 2. I still scared. Next pitch………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
Base hit. Those ….. are how long it took for Papelbon to throw the damn ball. Bases loaded for Baltimore.
I literally cannot handle this.
what the frick?! why are the bases loaded. WHAT HAPPENED?
i am petrified. after what i have just been through, i really needed an easy win here…
You can’t leave me again. I need your comments to calm me down. 1 ball. Papelbon is taking his time again. Ball two. Jesus I need to change the channel. My farm needs tending to maybe I should just go and do it and save my sanity. Save my sanity, strike 1 —2-1 still, this is harder than it should be. \
Remy’s voice annoys me…………………………………………………………………..
Strike 2. No argument but it looked kind of close. On the corner says remy as I babble on. Everyone is standing. I am still sick. I can’t find my sister on TV. Needle in a haystack. Papelbon takes forever to trhow, ball 3.
Yankees winning 5-0. 3 outs away. Bases loaded, COME ON PAPELBON save my sanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fair ball.two runs FU Papelbon.
3 runs PAPELBON BLOWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Goodnight,
NOOOOOOOOOO
Someone broke Papelbon.
NO. Do NOT go to bed. Do NOT.
I am here. I am all talk. I never sleep EVER.
Someone needs to tell Papelbon that when you blow a save when your team needs it more than ever you don’t get 15 million a year.
If one damn single person at Fenway park stood and sang Sweet Caroline after that debacle I am going to scream.
Striking out watching? THIS IS NOT THE FIRST GAME OF THE SEASON SCUTURO. I still like you though:)
i hate this. a lot. i am at my office. because i don’t know anywhere else to go. and my boss just walked in on me rolly chair surfing. but really, what kind of boss is in the office at 10:30 at night?
i don’t know what to do about this game. i watched a YANKEES game for you people. that’s how much i love you, mike aviles.
I think I’m alone now
There doesn’t seem to be anyone around
I think I’m alone now
The beating of my heart is ………………………
an improvement over sweet caroline for tonight. did you read that thing curt schilling said????
Yes I did but blow hard likes attention. If he said nice things no one would care. He is over anyway. OVER.
Come on Mike Avilis. We need you even tho I spelled your name wrong.
i spell his name wrong all the time. i would spell better if he would hit better.
Mike Aviles is trying. He is trying hard.
foul, foul, foul, foul
i was heartbroken. i loved curt schilling. LOVED him. and now there is an empty place in my heart. speaking of empty places, MIKE AVILES, YOU ANGER ME.
Schilling yelled at me once on facebook. I told him to stay on his hill because he doesn’t know about the real world. He told me I was jealous. I told him he was full of it. TRUE story.
Hell yes I am jealous I want his money for being mediocre half his career and not even trying til he hit 35 but when you stand in your mansion and tell the little people what they should do you sound like an idiot CURT SCHILLING.
He did not try hard enough. NO.
Not hard enough. He’s out:(
I have come to the conclusion that we don’t deserve to make the post season. Maybe we should just stay home.
NO. We DO deserve it. We DO.
Here. Read this. This is my treatise on why we deserve it more than the fricking Rays: https://toosoxy.wordpress.com/2011/09/20/observations-about-entitlement-oh-and-john-lackey-doesnt-know-what-the-hell-happened-again/
Everyone deserves it more then Tampa but our guys don’t care so they don’t deserve NADA. Well Pedroia and Ellsbury deserve it.
AND KEVIN YOUKILIS
I’ve got a dream
(She’s got a dream)
I’ve got a dream
(She’s got a dream)
I just wanna see the floating lanterns gleam
Yeah
it is the top of the ninth and the stanks are spanking joe maddon. spanking. 5-0. woooohoooo.
But do we really want to get to the post season to lose anyway? HELL YA but, sigh. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
caffeine is a good temporary fix.
Don Orsillo is annoying me tonight. He keeps repeating the score. Which is unnecessary. I mean, it’s right there, Don Orsillo. We can READ.
He annoys me every night but not as much as Remy’s constant praise of every team on the planet but us. Not that we deserve praise right now.
and now we are relying on Felix Dobrount as our close. We are saving Papelbon for what exactly?
the… um… um… crap. games we can win. that’s what tito is thinking, isn’t it? he’s more pessimistic than we are.
come on, tito! have a DREAM
that. should be an r but I am too tired to care about typing.
What the hell is a Witer anyway?
i miss kevin youkilis.
ohmygod. i will blog about this: http://www.necn.com/09/20/11/Reports-Manny-to-play-in-Dominican-Winte/landing_sports.html?blockID=565379&feedID=3352
Tazawa seriously? This is our closer, the kid.
I have to give up my computer ion a few. My nephew needs it but I will be back.
well. at least the inning is over. jacoby and dustin will set us free.
No! Nephews shouldn’t have computers. Not when there are Red Sox games!
He has a computer but no microsoft office.lol
Should I put the game on now? Last time it didn’t work out so well.
jacoby is on first! interference… yikes
i MISSED IT.
luck is better then talent
LUCK IS BETTER THEN TALENT.
The two guys we should have up our up so at least we know we will get an effort. Gonzo BETTER run to first or else. If he walks I might throw the remote at the TV,
COME ON DUSTIN. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you need to put the game on! you have to be watching this. it is history, fda. we are about to do something amazing.
DP, Seriously. I am done. Night.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Why? WHY?
Eminem is not helping us here. This is such a wasted night. URGH.
RALLY CAP? Gonzo and Papi. COME ON.
DAMNIT
Now I am gone. the nephew is here and we just lost.
I do not understand the world. THIS. This is why I had to cheer for the Yankees. Because the only way we’re going to make the playoffs is if ALL THE OTHER TEAMS LOSE
I am sad.